I'm not blocked....just burnt out

Just a quick update, no I didn't finish NaNoWriMo, my final word count was approx. 22,000 words. which considering the history of my writing as played out through this blog, is pretty good.

If you read StoryWings, you will know I am currently feeling burnt out. This is transcending to my writing as well, which really really sucks.

I am just going to put it out there even though you probably already know this, but writing is really, really hard. Poetry for me is easy, it's my soul - literally - on a page, but novels? Come on who are we kidding here?

The only motivation we have to keep going when we write is that we might someday get to the point after years of hard work and slaving and NOT getting paid for it on our own time pushing everyone else away, that we just might get the chance for someone who probably doesn't know how freaking hard it is to judge our work on the first 10 pages and decide whether it is good enough to pass on to someone else for them to decide if it's good enough only to be passed on and on and so on and so forth.

Do I smell a masochist?

Writing is a lonely freaking process, there's no one to cheer you on, there's no one to give you a raise and tell you how good you're doing, sure you get coffee breaks...but it's your own freaking coffee and not someone else's that your drinking, so if it's crap you only have yourself (or your mum, whatever) to blame.

As you can probably tell, I am really, really, bone dead tired right now. I am funnily enough actually feeling quite generally happy, but I am just so tired.

I was hoping to do a writing marathon over this Christmas/New Year period, but I really don't know how that's going to go considering how it's started...with this post.

My usual process is to just keep pushing and pushing until you get to where you want to be, right now it doesn't matter if I'm tired, if I push now and get these books written I'll be laughing in a couple of years - rejection isn't really an option for me at the moment, I need pep - If I push now and finish tech I'll get to continue laughing at all my class mates who called me a nerd but who are all currently working dead end jobs while I flesh out a career which I am hoping to be able to give away anyway when I become an awesome writer.

But right now I'm tired...hopefully tomorrow I will feel better, I will update if that in someone miraculously happens.

It's times like these where I really wish I didn't have as high a tolerance for alcohol as what I do, then I could get roaring drunk on some bulk spirits and only have to worry about a headache in the morning instead of millions of blank pages and me not doing anything about filling them.

NaNoWriMo: Day 15

So on Sunday....I wrote 5,000 words!!!

I found a new technique too in doing it. I can write about 750 words in half an hour if the story is going at a normal pace. So now I am trying to write in 750 word blocks for my daily goal as well.

750 words in half an hour, get up take a walk, come back for the next 750. It takes the pressure off for me at the daunting fact of writing 1,666 words in one sitting. even though I can do it, that kind of pressure isn't healthy I don't reckon.

I have also had a new idea for a story, when the hell I'm going to get around to writing it at this stage is beyond me, but I will write it down after I finish my nano for today and file it away for later.

Hopefully I will write it soon because it is kind of relevant to now.

In other news, I don't know exactly what December holds for me as yet.

I have been neglecting my blog over the last couple of weeks to write in NaNoWriMo which I am extremely proud of myself for doing, but I also have responsibilities to adhere to, review books, BLI etc.

So December may be a reading month once again, that will allow me to hopefully catch up on some of my e-books and reviewing, then January I will go back to writing and blogging at the same time.

I have realised though that Sunday is a great writing day for me...5,000 words attests to that too.

So I am off for the days haul, and yesterdays because I was sick last night. I am feeling better today but I'm not back at work yet, there will be naps involved in todays writing session.

NaNoWriMo: Day 13

So yeah I haven't posted in a while...

But I have been writing! My current wordcount stands at approx. 15,000. Which I reckon is awesome. I am starting to move into the guts of the story and it's becoming more interesting for me to write. The setup is finished, the premise is done and now I get to kill my character off and make her a vampire :D

Now for day 13 15,000 words is behind schedule. I should be hovering around 21,000.

6,000 words in a day? Well, for that I am going to need bribery!

In this packet there are 12 squares. That's one square for every 500 words but who likes the number 500 in Nanowrimo, so I am going to get one square for every 750 words. That means I will be able to eat as I go and not get bored trying to up word count for chocolate.

This way I have a slim chance of getting ahead!

Wish me luck!